I’m 20, he’s 26, he called me a CHILD & BELITTLED me, I feel WORTHLESS

The person that I was falling for was completely gone and it broke my heart... I was so scared, rejected and belittled because I didn’t know who that person was. But I get so attached to people that’s why I’ve been single for a year. I seem to put people before myself when they never do, or when I know they never will cause I have never had anyone do that for me. Except for my dad, but he passed away 18 months ago. So I think I got that trait from him. Also, I had already slept with him so I didn’t want to let go, because I actually care about body count. But anyways... When we get into arguments he calls me a child/childish ... he just loves throwing my age in there when in fact that seems childish to me. I wasn’t a child when we were... nvm 🙃. But anyways, or for instance he was like “idk who you think your playing with little girl”. He also calls me bipolar and when I asked him to stop, he replaced it with “unstable creature” ok, one of my exes have said I am very intact with my emotions and I am a emotion-driven person, but it’s 2018, can I not do that because others are not intact with themselves? Should I be sorry that I show I care?? I don’t like to stay mad at someone I care or love. He was being a nonchalant bully saying “what you looking at me for crazy, I’m going to have a good day idc what kind of shit you on” which seems as if he only cares about himself and I was watching him normally like I usually do when he gets dressed for work... and we haven’t talked in two days what should I do? We probably won’t talk because he is NEVER the bigger person. Im always apologizing!! And if he does apologize it’s never sincere. Am I wrong for being mad at him calling me a child like damn, I know there’s an age gap. And what’s crazy is my memory is so bad that’s why I am SO forgiving, idek what we were arguing about after 10 minutes into the argument!!!! But he kept going when I asked him to STOP. I cried for hours. Now as I read this I feel like the Glow girls I would give advice to but I don’t want to take it....

Dating: 3 mo.