Possible trigger warning

Our friends had a preemie baby this last weekend via c section. We saw the baby in the nicu and super precious but please keep him in your prayers. But i haven't been in a baby ward since my c section (was a really bad experience, 3 days of labor ending in a an emergency c section). Anyway just the smell of the baby ward sent me into a full blown panic attack knowing i have to do this all again in a few months. How do I get over this fear?! Im tired of it consuming my every thought! And vbacs aren't an option for me :(