Really emotional today 😓😓😓

Some days are so hard... My best friend recently told me she is 3 months pregnant.. My colleague gor pregnant and had an abortion.. My husband's best friend are expecting.. My school friend just had a baby and her sister. My other close friend is pregnant.... Im thr only one around who doesn't get the baby virus... God i can't take it anymore im so so so tired with all Ovulation tracking, Negative tests, people's encouraging words and sweet faces, Preseed, vitamins.... I wish i could close my eyes and just stop thinking about it.. I picked my ovulation used pre seed and i was so positive this time.. And than af shows again and my friend is keep talking about her pregnancy knowing what I've been through for the past 2 years.... I just want to stop thinking about it but i can't and i just want to cry today. . 😓😓😓😓😓