Uncontrollable need to test?

So I’m only 8dpo, cervix is high, soft and closed. Temp dropped yesterday but is up like 1/2 a degree today. I’ve had some crampy/pinching feeling and i tested last night and this morning knowing 100% it was way to early and got glowing negatives. Does anyone else just feel the need to test? I didn’t with my daughter. It’s only our 1st month trying so i don’t even think it’ll happen this month. But I just wanna do it. A part of me is like maybe if i take one everyday and take pictures it’s like i could document it slowly getting darker. I feel so WEIRD wanting to do it. But, this could be my last baby.