I love being pregnant but I feel so terrible

I have two children from a previous marriage. My youngest is 5 years old. I got pretty heavy with both of them. I was 150 before I got pregnant at the age of 18 and 240 after my 2nd!! It took a lot of dedication and time to get the weight off. I went to the gym everyday, I was tanning and I went back down to 145!

My and my new husband were trying for a year for a baby. I’m finally pregnant! Now 16 weeks with a boy! Only thing is, I gained so much weight already. I was 145 now I’m 170. I don’t know why I gain so much. I feel terrible. I don’t recognize myself in the mirror. I’m breaking out, I’m pasty white and I just feel awful. I know my husband isn’t attracted to me anymore... how could he be? Nothing fits me right. I’m having a major bitch fit and I’m sure a lot of it is hormones. I feel guilty for feeling this way. I just needed to vent😪