Loosing hope every end of cycle... you are not alone!

I know I am blessed as I have my two little men that are my life and my heart is full of love because of them. I probably shouldn’t be complaining as I know exactly how is it not to get that line that we all want to see. I have been we’re most of us are/have been before and I am now again waiting for the line... Struggling again with infertility, in my case male infertility, teratozoospermia. I am 39, so does my husband, we are trying after being unsuccessful naturally with prescribed Clomid again, for pregnancy #2, second round. I thought it could be possible this time with clomid (unsuccessful 3 years ago and ended with IUI), but every time the AF due date is approaching my hopes sink.

AF should be here anytime. Since I am still nursing my twins, my cycles are a bit longer + clomid that is readjusting everything , I never know exactly when will it be. I am cramping since yesterday and sometimes I think it might be an early pregnancy symptom... deep inside we want to be in until the evidence is here, right? For all the women out there struggling and loosing hope, dreams come true and we will get to cuddle our babies sooner or later, don’t feel down, keep your hopes and be positive, the time will come!