I need encouragement...

This was my last chance and now I'm sad. 😢 I'm trying not to be angry with God and just trying to understand why things happen the way that they do. Maybe one day I will get to be a mother. I hope He blesses me one day.I was 9 days late on my period. I had some spotting and mild cramping so I thought maybe that was part of implantation. Went to bed and still no blood when I woke up at 3am so I tested. BFN. Went back to sleep and woke up about an hour ago with HORRIBLE cramps. I just knew 😡 EDIT: AF DID SHOW! BRIGHT RED My bf and I just split up but I was clinging to

the fact that I'm never late and have such a regular cycle. I really thought I was pregnant😣.. I'll be 25 in July and if it doesn't happen soon, I feel like I may not get the chance.