I want to die.

Is it normal for a 17 year old girl to feel so mad about my life? I just feel like I regret every decision I make, I always mess things up. I’m not going to kill myself, I’m too chicken for that. But it is bad that I wouldn’t mind dying. I wouldn’t be bothered if I got a deadly disease or died in a car wreck. I feel like my life isn’t going anywhere and I dread waking up every day. I’m not happy, life doesn’t seem that great. I literally would not care if I died. idk how else to explain it.