How many November babies will there be 😔

It’s not anyone’s fault and I shouldn’t feel so much jealously and hatred towards my friends and family just bc their babies are due in November. November 2nd 2018 would of been my very first baby’s due date. Unfortunately, we didn’t make it out of February before I lost the baby 😔 now it seems that EVERY announcement is for November and everytime Im told about one I can’t help but think “that should be me, too” “I should be experiencing all the pregnancy happiness, too”... I’m so mad at myself for feeling this way towards everyone I love but I can’t help it. God forbid I even try and express my feelings to anyone about it bc all I get back is “don’t be so jealous bc they didn’t lose their baby and you did, it’s ugly” “being jealous is not going to bring your baby back and it’s definitely not going to help you fall pregnant again” like I totally understand it’s not their fault their babies stayed and mine got taken, but I can’t be sad? Just a little bit? It’s just so heart breaking hearing about a new baby arriving in November just when I start to feel a little better. Sorry ladies I’m just venting. Baby dust 🤞🏼✨