My husband was recently deployed about a month ago and a month before he left, I felt myself getting low. This past month has been hard, we have a 7 month old, and we moved back to stay with family to help me out. I’ve tried working out to give myself an escape and clear my mind, but it doesn’t help. I’ve tried doing crafts. I’ve gone shopping. I’ve tried writing out how I feel and what I want to see change. I’ve written out what I’m happy about, and I’m still just not like how I used to be. I got married 5 months after I graduated, everyone said to wait and it’s been about a year and a half since we got married. But since I’ve been back with family, I’ve seen all my friends and how much fun they’re having with their boyfriends and how much less resplendently they have and I’m super jealous. I’m not sure if it’d be considered PP depression or just depression overall, I’m just not super thrilled with my life.

Don’t get me wrong though. My daughter is the absolute best thing in the world. But I feel like I grew up way to fast, I’ve only drank once in my entire life and it was with my parents. I’ve never been drunk, never high and I just feel like I missed out on a lot of things. And yes, I know. Getting drunk isn’t as hyped up as people make it sound, same with getting high and anything else like that. I just don’t know what to say to my husband without making him think i don’t like our lives.