I know so many of you are already judging me but I’m lost and I’m hurt. I am pregnant with what will be my fourth child and twice in this short time since I have been pregnant (10 weeks) I’ve known for 4. I have found my husband is emotionally cheating on me, you know sending private messages, nudes and receiving nudes like the bastard that he is. I can’t raise 4 kids alone, I can barely handle my 3 alone. He refuses to go to therapy for his problem or for my sanity and I don’t see us lasting past the summer. In my mind an abortion now is best for my three kids and I, so that when we are on the streets alone we will be able to survive .. I am scared of being alone with four kids, I am scared of having an abortion too, I know it will torture me for the rest of my life .. but this cheating shit is torturing me too and I don’t see myself forgiving this asshole