I am totally terrified about giving birth!

Okay ladies I’m only 8 weeks but my anxious ass is already thinking about when I go into labor. I still haven’t wrapped my head around how something so big can come out of my tiny vagay 😂 needless to say I am absolutely mortified and scared to death and I’m sure other women feel the same way. I know my body was built for it but it’s a totally new experience for and I have no idea what to expect or how it feels other than stories I’ve heard and stories on here.

Im also on the fence about either giving natural birth or with epidural. I’ve done tons of research about the different types of epidurals but I need your ladies opinion.

This is kind of what I’m looking for I want to be comfortable as in being able to move around freely and I was thinking I can see how I handle the pain before getting an epidural but I know that’s not realistic because the anesthesiologist may be backed up and by the time he/she gets to me it’s too late. Then i read that the epidural although it can take away the pain it can prolong labor and you really can’t feel your contractions and when you push.

So I totally do not know what option to go for! Can’t I do like a low dose epidural or other pain medication that epidural needle looks scary and I’m afraid of being paralyzed. If I do get a epidural or walking epidural can they increase it if I can’t handle the pain? And is a catheter necessary just thinking about it makes me cringe.