Am I a bad person??? - long post

Bella

I have been friends with this girl for years but she has always found ways to make me feel like a bad person and yet again I am feeling like a terrible person.

Her and I had a massive falling out about 2 years ago but reconnected about 4/5 months ago when we both found out she was pregnant and so was I.

Since then she has had her baby and I’m still pregnant, but I have tried my hardest to spend time with her and see her and her baby but she is always busy and never replies to me, leaves me on “read” but i can see she is active on social media.

I ended up telling her to ring me when she was free and I would be there to see her and I would drop what I was doing to spend time with her...

she has never made time for me EVER. But I’m still the bad person...

The next issue is that when my partner and I were choosing a name for our baby boy, we wanted the middle name to be the same name at my partners grandfather, turns out it’s the same name as my “friends” last name ...

and .... turns out she wanted the name we chose ! But we had already chose then name and basically set it in stone and were just keeping it quiet ... but when my “friend” asked me about the name I told her because she has already had her baby and I it would be nice for her to know and it would be funny because it had her last name as the middle name !! But then we found out she wanted that name originally... how on earth were we suppose to know this when she has just named her baby a completely different name !!?? - still I’m the bad person and she has told me I should hate myself for doing this to her ...

Next issue is that my mum and two closest friends are throwing me a baby shower !

They are organising the whole thing but I wanted to have a little to do with it so I MADE the invites and they did the list and sent out the invites ! My “friend” has blown up at me saying why wasn’t she invited ...?? How on earth was I suppose to know ??? I wasn’t organising it ??? But I’m still a bad person ...

I’ll post photos of her message she sent me last night. She has since blocked me on all social media and my phone number so I guess she never received my reply...

I cried my eyes out for hours last night because I hate the fact that I’ve made someone feel so upset and unintentionally! I would never want to hurt anyone !

And then I thought ... hang on... when her and I were friends back 2 years ago, we were still hanging out and I would often go to her place ... she moved my EX into her house and would make sure he wasn’t home when I would go there... now I’ve only just found this out through my ex’s mum.... she mentioned it to my mum and my mum told me ... that hurt me because she want my best friend at the time and god knows what they were doing ... you can only imagine ...

But please tell me and be honest everyone am I a bad person !

My partner and I absolutely love the name we have chose as it has a lot of meaning to us and we both don’t think we should have to change it because my “friends” partner didn’t like that name so she couldn’t name her son that????

That’s not fair on us...???