I have been trying to conceive since the passing of my mother in October 2016. I was on depo and my last shot was in November 2016, I didn’t start my cycle again until July 2017. Once AF came I thought I was back to normal but I guess I was wrong. I finally worked up the nerve to tell my doctor that I was ttc and he was not at all surprised. He told me to take prenatal vitamins and have sex but it seems like nothing is working. I completely missed my period in February so I tested everyday but negative is all I kept seeing. Fast forward to April I woke up prayed and decided giving up was not an option. My best friend texted me a week later and told me she was pregnant and I didn’t mind because I knew pregnancy was a dream and it was finally coming true. We cried together (happy tears) and I can’t wait for her bundle of joy. Now a Co-worker/friend who was so against having another child came to me and said she was pregnant and at the same time the words left her lips I felt a gush of blood leave my body and the meltdown I had was so bad my boyfriend didn’t even know what to say or how to make me feel better all he did was listen and wipe my tears away. I cried all day and all night I don’t even think I went to sleep that night. Now this morning I got a call from another Co-worker/friend saying her daughter is pregnant and is due on my birthday which is in July and the meltdown is now in full effect. I haven’t stopped crying since I woke up and answered that phone call. I pray everyday and I feel like it’s never going to happen. The hope of conceiving is drifting away and I don’t think I can hold on anymore. I was supposed to be ovulating today and I’m not I’m on my cd21. Sorry this was so long but I needed to let this out hopefully I can feel better and stop crying. Thank you for reading