Biggest decision of my life (please please read)

Hello everyone,

I’m in a really tough place at the moment. I’m 19, currently a student nurse going into my second year of training. I have a boyfriend who’s in uni himself training to be a paramedic. We’ve only been together since september but we’re so in love.

I found out I’m 4.5 weeks pregnant two days ago. I’m scared, shocked, confused. My boyfriend is amazing, he actually wants me to continue with the pregnancy. I originally wanted to keep it. But looking now I honestly believe that was because I hadn’t got over the shock yet. Now, I’m unsure I can do this.

I told my mum today (she lives nearly 400 miles away from me) and she is really supportive, obviously says it’s my choice etc however believes I should have an abortion. I know it’s for the best that I do. My boyfriend said he’ll support me no matter what choice I make. I’ve been very fortunate with my support. My mum has even said she’ll come with me for a termination. However, if I did continue with the pregnancy, I’d have no support at all financially (I have a special needs sibling etc my mum already has to look after and it’s not her place), I’d have to leave uni etc.

I know one day I’d make a brilliant Mum and my boyfriend would make an amazing dad. It’s just not a good time for us.

Please no judgement. I didn’t plan this. Just a stupid mistake. Accidents happen. I feel so disappointed in myself, I’d never thought I’d be the girl questioning a termination. I know I’ll never be able to forgive myself but I also know I can’t provide good care for my baby. I feel heartbroken I’m in the situation. 💔