Hello Everyone.😞😞

I have no words to describe how....tired, furious, exhausted i am. I am officially losing our fourth baby.

I had a miscarriage in 2014-2015.

I had an ectopic at 8w4d in Oct 2017

I had a miscarriage at 4w3d in Feb 2018

I AM having another ectopic this month, May 2018

My left fallopian tube is damaged. I have to go to an infertility clinic to know how bad it is to know if i have to do surgery to remove it.

I had no sleep for the past 2 days crying. I am speechless. I had such a beautiful line progression.

My Hcg were more then doubling. Its was 22 on april 26 and 240 on may 2. My first ultrasound on may 4 they thought the saw a yalk sac in my uterus.

EVERYTHING LOOKED PROMISING.

May 7 at 11pm i went to the emergency for a bit of pain but i had no bleeding.

Blood work done at 5h30 am on May 8 came back at 628 while it should have been around 1960. I did another ultrasound. They saw a mass in the same left fallopian tube then Oct 2017 and i had blood in my abdomen. I was 2inches away from getting an emergency surgery.

They ran another blood test at 11am for me on May 8 and it came back at 592. Another today and it was 490.

I cant breath. I was so certain it was my rainbow baby. Im emotionally drained.

I hope every single one of you dont go through something like this. I don’t know how to live with it. I need to be away from this app a bit to grief.

Good luck to everyone that is pregnant and happy 9months.

Thanks for you support