Here I sit contemplating, looking at dates on calender to line up the perfect baby dance for 5 months now. Making sure vitamins are taken, making sure opk's are stocked. It can get to be exhausting yet I still do the same almost like a routine now. Today God taught me somthing in such a small very normal way. In the form of my own child. My youngest is now 6. He's been the typical mommas boy/youngest! (spolied) well today came home whiny (He fell asleep on ride home) and just woke up on wrong side of car. He just needed those snuggles and rubs. To lay his head on chest again like he did when he was small 😢

I've finally heard what god was teaching me! I've been so caught up in planning a new child that I've ended up I guess you would say neglecting (emotionally) my blessings I already have. I never knew or seen I was . I ask about their day, we laugh and play. It still normal routines. but I realized mentally I have been wrapped up in making baby number three that I'm just cruising through the days not really living in the moment of them. So ladies I'm going to start living again! Thanking the heavens for the two God has blessed me with. To really feel those heart melting moments, even those days I could pull all my hair out. & trust in God's timing. I just have to give hope a chance to float up ❤ #excusemyface #longday