i need help. please. 😢

I'm new to this. especially talking about what had happened to me. because not 1 person in the whole world knows my whole story & i feel like posting this anonymously will help me to let iy all out. so here goes, when I was younger probably around 7, my aunt & cousin use to live with my family. we had a basement that we converted into a den/laundry room kinda thing. well I remember goin down there with my cousin to play "house" he would say. he touched & exposed me to things a child should never be exposed to several times throughout the year they lived with us. I then in turn would try to do it with others until I realized that it is not what a child my age should be doing. I held it in until I got with my first serious boyfriend. It was a horrible relationship. abuse, unfaithful, & not knowing how unhealthy our relationship was. towards the end I started being unfaithful (I know it's 100% wrong) but decided I could do better & left. fast forward a couple years. partying, & alot of sex with men I didn't even know their names. I'd feel like we should go into a private place because I felt like I "needed" intimacy. I'm 26 now, I know I need to contain myself but sometimes I can't. I feel like I need sex from friends, strangers, anybody to give me that "fix". I have gone to guys houses just to have sex & when they fell asleep I would hurry & get my stuff & haul ass because 1 I couldn't remember their name & 2 they gave me what i wanted so there was no reason to stick around. I'm so scared that I'm going to ruin what I have now for some random strange. I do not want to. I have a perfect husband & 2 beautiful daughter's, but sometimes it's hard because my husband is gone ALOT. I truly do not mean to think this way it just happens. as cliche as that sounds, it's true. we've had problems in the past with being faithful but we are both working on overcoming them together. but i feel like if we dont have sex every night that he doesnt care about me or want me. I know for a fact he does but it's just my thought process. so after all of that, my question is, could my cousin touching me & doing things to me at such an early age have caused me to become a sex addict? it truly scares me because I don't want my daughter's to be like me. at all. I am terrified that my mentality will somehow be forced onto them. I do not have anything or anyone around my kids that I don't feel comfortable with & would never have them in a situation that I'm in but I am terrified. I just need some help from someone or something. please 😢😶