A few months ago I tried hanging myself with a belt in my closet. It was working, all the noise in the background started fading, my eye sight was getting blurry, I couldn’t breathe. Then all of a sudden the belt breaks and I fall to the floor. I started crying cause my attempt didn’t work. But now I’m slowly realizing that I’m actually supposed to be here, I don’t know what my purpose on this earth is as yet but here I am today!