I’m 32 weeks and my stress and depression has never been worse. On top of that I now have been experiencing anxiety which has never really happened . It’s terrifying and I’m scared it will only get worse postpartum . Ive always wanted to be a mom but not going to lie I feel helpless. I give up my career, my independence, my financial stability and independence, my social life, if I want anything for myself I have to go through my boyfriend to get it because my EI won’t cover the cost of my vehicle let alone my phone, food, gas, and anything else. I have a breakdown a couple times a week and I feel so selfish, under appreciated and just like an awful person. I know when she’s here it’ll be worth it but my anxiety and depression are screaming at me louder than reason sometimes.