UPDATE!! After 2 Miscarriages in a row- we heard our baby’s heartbeat!!

My boyfriend and I suffered our first miscarriage in October of 2017. I was 8 weeks when I went in for my checkup and they didn’t find a heartbeat. I waited two weeks for it to pass but nothing happened so I had to take the medication and pass it at home. The processes was painful both physically and emotionally.

In January 2018, we found out we were pregnant again. We went in for our check up and again, no heart beat. I was crushed, again. More so than the first time because I couldn’t help but think that it’s my fault, or that I’m being punished for something. We had the procedure done about a week later, because by then I was 10 weeks and it still hadn’t passed on its own (again). The doctor told me to try again but I was so skeptical because I didn’t want to be disappointed again. (I have a whole journal entry that I wrote the day this happened-tears and everything. Lmk if you guys would like me to share!)

Our plan since the first miscarriage was to wait until about September anyways because we wanted a summer baby (lol). She said that these incidents may just have been a coincidence that it happened twice in a row. And that if we tried again and this happens again, to maybe look into fertility services. I was so shocked. I’m 23 years old, the last thing I thought I had to worry about was not being able to carry my child. I was so sad and we both just felt like waiting til the end of the year to try again was best.

So! I got a normal period in March and April, and May came along and nothing. We took a test last night (May 23) and, we’re pregnant again! Of course, we’re beyond excited but we don’t want to be toooo excited because, well, 3 miscarriages in a row at 23 years old would just wreckkkk me. GLOW says I should be about 6 weeks. So I’m gonna schedule my appointment for a couple weeks from now and I’ll keep you all posted! 😃 (follow me to see my next posts).

Do you guys have any insights to my predicament or any tips, or anyone who’s gone through a similar situation? (No heart beat at 8 weeks, twice in a row). I’m praying this pregnancy will be our little miracle we’ve been waiting for.

6/11/18 update:

We went in for our 8 week ultrasound and FINALLY saw a heartbeat and got to hear it. It was such an amazing feeling I can’t even tell you how it felt, after the last two failed pregnancies. My boyfriend’s face when we heard everything was okay just brought tears to my eyes. It was such a genuinely happy moment. Here’s the ultrasound!! Any gender guesses?!? We’re hoping for a boy😇😇😇