Scared

Alexandra

I'm 17 and 5 days, I really haven't felt the baby move at all. I did once a week ago, there was no way that was gas it was deff a kick. I can't tell if I feel "fluttering" or if it's just my nurves. So because I haven't really felt anything I start thinking at like 2am (bc I can't sleep) that maybe it's dead and all I'm doing is carrying around my dead baby. My next appointment is in 4 days and it can't come soon enough. I'm an extremely paranoid person with high anxiety. i dont wanma talk to my hubby about it because im afraid he'll think im crazy and just want to take me to the hospital. But my thing is if its dead or alive now it will be dead or alive in 4 days. I'm trying not to think about it but it helps me to write it out. Did anybody else worry about this kinda stuff?