So today is the day, we are having a private scan tonight that I booked and paid for because this is about a week further than my last miscarriage and the furthest we have ever got!

I’m absolutely terrified! Terrified of the scan, terrified if it’s bad news, terrified I may have just ruined our holiday that we have paid £2000 for 🤦🏼‍♀️ just terrified. I have no one to talk to they all think I need to be more positive but I just can’t, I have no positive left inside me at this point.

Scan at 6 weeks we saw a bean and a strong heart beat! I’m pretty symptomatic this time round, like a zombie and my breast are sore and veiny however the sickness has rescued to maybe once a day??