since i lost my baby

On March 8th i found out i was pregnant i was so excited. On April 2nd had a normal Dr. visit baby doing fine so I had a good birthday on the 11th then i went to another Dr. visit on April 16th but Dr. said he don't see my baby heartbeat so we talked about the next step but I couldn't understand at that point my fiance wasn't with me so i went home and told him and instantly he my fiance started hating me he even told me i killed his baby mind you i have Lupus and sjogren disease which both of them is a autoimmune diseases. On April 26th the Dr. gave me some meds to help me pass the baby so on the 27th i pass a clot and i thought the nightmare was over but On May 11th Dr did an ultrasound and my baby was still there so i took the meds again and one month til the day my baby died i held my baby in my hands on May 16th now my fiance told me yesterday he don't want me and he been cheating i truly believe now im grieving the death of my baby and the death of our relationship. i feel like im losing everything including my life im on antidepressant etc.... im losing it all

My Birthday