Coming out to my mom with my beliefs.

Brittany

Hi, I am somewhat new to these beliefs but after doing research and thoroughly looking at both religious beliefs and agnostic beliefs, along with athiest beliefs I've come to the conclusion that I identify as agnostic. My delima lies in the fact that my mother and I used to go to church together when I was a teenager. Her and my father were going through a very messy seperation and I was stuck in the middle. My father unfortunately became addicted to opiods due to life events that occured causing them to split up. My father was too unstable for me to live with, causing me to live with my mother. Which in turn led to me going to church with her. At the time it was what I needed due to my situation and the lack of support i experienced from my mother and father. My mother is still very religious and believes that God changed her life. Our relationship and bond is deeply routhed in the fact that we both went to church together all those years. My other sisters and brother were older than me and to old to be influenced in that way and lived mostly "secular or mainstream" lifestyle which made this bond even more special for my mother and still does to this day because I haven't told her yet. Two out of my three siblings know my beliefs. My brother shares the same ideals as I do and my sister is supportive and accepting. My husband and I have been trying to concieve for 6 years now and are getting closer everyday to having a baby. I know my mother will want the child to go to church with her. She's already "helped" to "save" two of her grandchildren. I dread the day I have to have the conversation with her that it is my childs choice as to whether or not they go to church and the ways she may try to get them to go or convince them to be saved with eternal damnation, and the conversation that will surely follow. Has anyone dealt with a situation like this? If so any advice is much appreciated. Also my mother is a very fragile person emotionally so I want to handle the situation as delicately as I possibly can. If you made it this far, thank you for reading a bit of my story.