Don’t know if this is where I should post this but I need someone to talk this is really hard for me.. when I was 15 I got pregnant I was with my partner for 6 months I was scared confused and felt alone but we thought the best decision was to have a termination as we were far too young I went through depression after and just couldn’t face the world after. Anyways after a year I started to feel myself again still with my partner years later I’m 21 now his 23 and I’ve just found out I’m pregnant faint lines all 8 test still waiting to test a digi just in case I’m crazy but I haven’t told him yet as we had this conversation about two weeks ago about how it would be amazing to have a baby with him and how holding my friend little girls made me want one so bad and I feel really, me and him spend a lot of time with our friends 1 year old and she adores hims. He is the one I want to have babies with and I’ve been hospital and all that because I have problem in that area and that said it would be hard for me to have babies as my mum as well had and has a lot of issues and the worry for me, when my mum was pregnant with me they told her to abort me because we both wouldn’t make it but she thought this was her chance but let’s just say anyways I got a little baby fever talking about how he would be great and all that jazz but I know the moment I tell him he is going to say his still not ready and it’s happened at a bad time last time it happened something bad was going on family wise I won’t get into detail but again my life being the mess it is, not a good time again more family matters that are important to deal with I just really don’t know what to do or what to say but all I know is I cannot go through that again.. the depressing the regrets, not leaving my house I just really am again messed up at the moment and just don’t know what to do with myself...

I know I said the doctors said it would be hard for me and I’ve fallen pregnant twice but they always said there could be high risk with my pregnancy but I feel like this is my chance but I know he won’t feel the same at the moment he keeps talking about vacations and stuff so he going to think that we won’t be able to do stuff like, we ain’t drinker, we don’t go parties.