He’s it.

Ladies..

Relationships are hard huh? They take a lot of work and effort, am I right? But isn’t it easier when you find “the one”? Those little things that used to piss you off in your previous relationship seem minuscule now. you wake up refreshed, your arguments aren’t really “arguments” but more of a disagreement that end in understanding.

I found the one who makes me feel like I’m the only girl in the world. I got my heart fucking ripped from my chest by my sons father. Together for EIGHT years. Cheated on multiple times, lost confidence, was mentally, emotionally, and physically abused, was made fun of, was told I’m a shitty mother, was told I was nothing without him.

Don’t get me wrong, there were a lot of “good” times.. but now that I just said that, they weren’t actually good times at all. They were acts. We were so comfortable with each other and where we were at, it was just easy to pretend we were “happy”. I enrolled in nursing school, and he HATED it. He HATED that I was bettering my life. That I wasn’t going to be working these 9-5 jobs and still having to depend on him. He hated that I was becoming independent. He hated that I was becoming confident. He hated it. Which in the end led me to hating him, and vise versa.

I left. I left for the last and final time in January. I said peace the fuck out to the most toxic person in my life. I was so worried it would “ruin” my son. But honestly, both my son and I have never been happier. I graduated nursing school, landed my job as a nurse, and finally have all I have ever wanted.. but I was missing that feeling of being loved. Loving someone.

I went out one night with the girls.. had no intention of meeting anyone.. we went to a bar and we were standing in line and there he was. The man who would completely transform my life. The man who would remind me what it felt like to love and be loved. And here we are, 3 months later, married & loving life and loving each other & planning for a child of our own. He loves me and my son as if my son were his own. Crazy thing is, he was born on my late grandfathers birthday, as well as my best friend who signed as a witness when we got married.

YOU GUYS- it is okay to walk away from toxic people. It’s okay to separate. It’s okay to not stay together for the kids. It’s okay to be happy. It’s okay to love yourself. It’s okay to be loved by someone else. It’s okay to step out of your comfort zone. Because the best things in life are waiting for you to make the change. It’s out there, LOVE is out there. It is up to YOU to allow it to enter your life. Let go of all the shitty people, it’s worth it.