Anxiety is the worst...

My step-dad, when he moved in with us, found a guy who works at our Walmart that he lost his damn mind over. He swore up and down every time he saw this poor gentleman that he was PERFECT for me. Two years later, so does my mom. And my little sister. And my best friend. And my sub-facking-concious. I've developed a crush on him, and every time I think about it I want to rip my face off, because I have neither the time nor the patience for this. Especially since we both have really serious social anxiety and physically can NOT talk to each other without someone else bolstering us along. From the few scanty conversations we've had, there's foundation for a solid friendship, at the LEAST. But we're terrified of each other.

Now-facking-what?