So, I've been self harming for maybe 5 years now.

And I've never really had a problem with the fixation making me go crazy. But this one person I liked starting encouraging me to get my life in order so I stopped for a bit recently. 2 months clean! Then this happened...

I relapsed for the third day in a row maybe an hour ago, not even, in the shower and I feel like shit. Through those five years, I've never felt the need to cut so strong that I could barely think about anything else but that was the feeling I had been feeling for the past few days. It sucks, and what really sucks is the relapse is because of the same person who encouraged me to stop. I'm not sure what I can do now that I'm back where I started. My cuts aren't bad, I know but it's the fact that I still do it is what gets to me and all the people who know. I just don't know where to go from here. Advice?