Ever since my friend told me she is pregnant my anxiety has been at an all time high, It gets worse every time I think about it (which is pretty much all the time). It’s just really weird too because talking to her about her pregnancy lifts my mood, but when we aren’t talking or texting the anxiety starts to build up something terrible. I feel like an awful friend because she is going through a stressful situation but I feel so needy and clingy and I feel like all I am doing now is annoying her.

Truth be told, I am terrified of what her having a baby will mean for our relationship. My focus always was on me having a baby, so for her to get pregnant before me....well let’s just say I have been trying for much longer before she was, so the thought of what would happen when she got pregnant never really entered my mind.

I’m seeing my therapist today but I am just so frustrated by the anxiety. I was bracing self for jealousy or maybe even depression, but not the overwhelming anxiety. I don’t even know how to attempt to get over it, especially when the baby comes and everything certainly changes.