“Not engaged yet” limbo

I just need to vent... Our 7 year anniversary is tomorrow. We are only 24 though... started dating in high school, so this is not a post about being “old” and waiting (even though that isn’t something I believe!!!) I’ve been working a “real” job for a year and he just graduated with a masters degree and will start teaching in the fall. We live together (2 years now), have two cats and just rescued a dog 10 days ago. The past year has been the first time that marriage seemed like a reality and not just this thug we knew would happen eventually.

He let it slip recently that he was planning to propose this summer, and had originally thought of proposing at his graduation. He changed his mind because he knew I would not like to be the center of attention with our families there and a bunch of strangers around us. His graduation came and went. I half expected he would ask that evening when we were alone, but he didn’t, and I didn’t think much of it. We left for a long vacation a few days later and had a great time. He didn’t ask and I was fine with that. I was a little bit bothered, but honesty just brushed it off and moved on. I figured he thought that would be too cheesy and predictable and I know he wants to surprise me. Tomorrow is our 7th anniversary. He typically works teaching music lessons on Saturday’s, but he took the day off, so I thought for sure it would happen this weekend and he may very well have been planning on it... but last night, our best friend from college proposed to his gf (who I adore). I heard and immediately had a sinking feeling of sadness. I am happy for them, especially because I know that she really wants to get married. She doesn’t want to live with him before they’re engaged, but just helped him buy a house and her dad is sick, so it’s a sticky situation! but I’m feeling really selfishly upset and jealous which is very unlike me. It’s our 7th anniversary and they’ve been dating for just over 3 years. I know they probably don’t know it’s or anniversary, but my bf could tell I was upset so I told him my feelings (prefaced with “please know that I know I am being irrational”) and he told me he already knew that our friend was proposing. That just made me sadder. He knew that our friends who have been dating half as long as we have we’re getting engaged during our 7th anniversary and that didn’t make him feel strange at all?? Am I crazy to feel strange about that?? I HATE that I am waiting for something I know is going to happen. I feel like my crazy attitude or borderline desperation at this point it is going to take the magic from the moment and that it is really just a formality. He won’t say yes if I ask which also annoys me because I am pretty feminist and have a slight control issue. It’s just so frustrating and I feel like it’s making me crazy. I’m not someone who dreamt about her wedding forever and just wants that, but I feel like I am acting/feeling that way... like a spoiled brat. To be honest, I haven’t really “acted” on any of this. I just FEEL like a spiked brat lol. It’s just making me really sad. I don’t understand why he is STILL waiting to ask. I know he wants to marry me. He openly talks about it... help an I bring crazy??? Anyone else experience this feeling??