I’ve started the Keto diet. These are my before photos. I’m mortified. 🙈 😔

Okay. It is REALLY difficult for me to post these photos 😕😣 The only person who sees me this naked is my partner (and asking him to take these photos was so embarrassing for me). But I thought that because I’m going to get back to a healthy weight, I should post some ‘before’ shots. There’s no way in hell Im going to share them on Facebook, so I thought I’d share them with you lovely ladies who are so encouraging and supportive 😊.

I started the Keto diet 3 days ago and have gone from 97kg to 94.4kg. I know that it’s mostly fluid loss but boy am I glad to see the scales start to go down. 😆

So far, for me, the Keto diet is great. I’m not craving bread, pasta, potatoes and sugar like I thought I would. I practically lived off the aforementioned foods, so to be able to make it through the day with only a regular amount of willpower rather than needing a superhero level amount of willpower is so comforting and encouraging for me. I can do this!!!!

I think it has a lot to do with the high amount of good fats I’m eating. I’ve found that with this diet my appetite has already reduced, so I’m not overeating at all. If anything, I’m having to add extra fats to my meals just so I hit my calorie target for the day.

I love that not only do I get to eat avocado, olive oil, butter, cheese, fatty meat, whole egg mayonnaise and so much more good stuff, but it is actually vital for me to eat it in order to get my body into a state of ketosis.

I am ready to feel energised again, I’m ready to be excited about clothes shopping again, I’m ready to jump out of bed with a bounce, I’m ready to get my fitness back, I’m ready to feel sexy again, I’m ready to have a clear and focused head again, I’m ready to feel like me again.

I am so lucky to have a partner who took this photos for me this morning, and then put his arm around me and said ‘I love you for you. You are beautiful. I am I completely supporting whatever you want to do!’ when I nearly burst into tears seeing how I looked. I never see myself from the back (I don’t even really see myself like this from the front because I have been avoiding mirrors lately) so these photos were quite confronting for me.

I hate knowing that my partner sees me like this. But despite the fact that I have gained 15kg in a year (thank you implanon and Mirena 🖕🏻😒), he still continues to hold me whenever he gets the chance, he will still stroke my legs and pull my legs onto his lap when we watch tv, he still tickles my belly, he still tells me in stunning and that he is lucky to have me, he still cuddles up to me as much as he can. We were friends before we got together so I know that he is naturally attracted to women who are slimmer than I am, but he always makes me feel beautiful and loved. I freaking love this man so much 😍.

I am a big believer in self love which is not something my mother ever taught me. I think it’s important to feel comfortable in your own skin and not feel like you have to fit into a certain mould that society has shaped as ‘ideal’. But I am also a big believer in fitness and health and I am no longer fit or healthy. I have actually been genuinely concerned that I would give myself diabetes with the amount of sugar I was consuming. So I am a hell of a lot more upset about my health than my looks.

So here I go. I think this is my biggest mission yet.

I am 30-years-old. 5ft 7in. Goal weight is 72kg (but if I feel okay and feel like I have more to lose I would love it if I can get into the 60’s. I’ll just see how my body is coping once I get to 72kg).

I have broken my big goal into smaller kg goals - 95, 90, 87, 85, 82, 80, 78, 76, 74, 72. I think having these smaller goals will help me feel like I’m actually achieving something. I have already achieved my first goal 😆👌🏻

On top of the Keto diet, I have gone back to CrossFit which helped me become the fittest I ever was before I stopped going, I also have a home gym to help on the days I can’t get into CF, and I walk 10,000-15,000 steps per day.

Wish me luck. I’ll post progress shots every month. 😊💪🏻