I need someone else to turn to

I’m 20, I will me 21 in August. My mom left me when I was 4 months old an my dad passed when I was 13. I have lived my aunt (dads sister) an my dad my whole life when he passed I was stuck with just her. She’s the most abusive person I’ve ever met; verbally and mentally. I’ve grew up with her being like this my whole life, but it’s become so so much worse since my dad passed away. She has no limit on what she says to me, everything from me being a fat piece of shit to I’m the reason my dads dead (I’ve heard that one since the month after he passed when I was 13). I don’t know man I know everyones gonna say move out or it’s gonna be ok but the reason I’m even saying any of this is because I don’t know how much longer it’s gonna “be ok” her mouth drives me to the point where I have harmed myself countless amounts of time an even been in a mental hospital because of her. She doesn’t care how she makes me feel; I just need someone to tell me it’s gonna be ok without saying those words.