Backstory: My husband and I are undergoing a lot of change recently. We just finished renovating a new house into our dream house when he was approached and offered a dream job. This job would require us to move 250 miles out of state. We also have a 18 month old son and I was 14 weeks pregnant (now 19 weeks). I also have a business I own that I have essentially put on hold to help in the transition to a new home etc.

I’m feeling so guilty as a mom. My son has struggled with the relocation into the new (temporary) apartment - cries more often, gets into things he knows he shouldn’t, falls more often etc). I find myself counting down minutes for him to go to nap or to sleep or for my husband to come home.

I’ve watched and read so many things saying how short this time is with our kids. I know I should feel energized and grateful I can spend every day with my sweet son. This is the time we can make sweet memories. I feel like I sometimes take escapes by going on social media to get “lost” sometimes 😔

I feel the most guilty that with all this change neither my son nor I are preparing for a new baby. I feel like throwing so much change has been so hard.

We plan to move into a new house in August which will be our permanent home. Is that enough time to get settled before baby is due in early Nov? Who knows.

I’m trying to get out and explore our new area with my son as much as possible but sometimes I’m just so tired and honestly a little apathetic that I just want it to feel normal. It’s hard because I have no sense of normal right now.

Im not sure what I’m looking to gain here but I felt the need to just get some things off of my chest.

Thanks for listening!