Late but hpn... want to give up ttc

How do you ladies keep positive and inspired for the next month and the next month and the next month, when your hpt keeps being negatives?

Its been two years where we have tried and its been negatives. Although there were two pregnancy and all m/c. The last one lasted for 7 weeks.

Ive been 15 days late and both pregnancy test were negative. I took one when i was 7 days late and today.

I swore I was probably pregnant because ive been:

- I’m really late on my period

- Bloated

- Nauseous to certain smell

- Nauseous after foods i regularly eat

- Swollen breast (not tender like regularly in my period cycle) but they have gotten bigger and fuller and sensitive

- Cramping slightly once a day

- I get tired after a certain time and need a nap

- Thirsty

My husband thought I was and said it out loud - “you’re pregnant”. I got my hopes up and I started to believe it, I thought I could take a test and hand it to him on father days but I took one today it came out negative. Flat out negative.

I feel so defeated.

My husband has no idea I took this pregnancy test so I came home all quiet and looked sad. He asked me what was wrong, I said nothing. I didn’t want to tell him because I just didn’t want to talk to him yet about it.

I just dont want to keep trying and every month it’s just a negative.

... Why is my period late anyways?!

Need inspiration.