Today I broke down in the shower but I got back up !

I was showering thinking about how hard it’s been ttc and couldn’t take it anymore ! I fell to my knees and started crying . I thought I wasn’t going to get up . I sobbed on my shower floor . I felt numb . I hate this feeling ! I want to be a mother more than anything in the world .I always thought about my guy and I future together when I was younger . I would’ve never guessed it would be this way .I had a miscarriage some years ago and haven’t been able to get pregnant since. I have fibroids but I know women that have successfully got pregnant and carried until delivery . I know everybody body is different. I wish I knew why I was going through this because maybe I would feel better . My SO and I are deeply in love , want to have a future together and both want children . I always thought we would have 10 kids lol . Oh how I was wrong . It’a crazy how I think about getting pregnant everyday . I see children every day . I see them on tv and outside . I look at families and I just want to tell them their

blessed and tell them to never take their family for granted .

After laying on my bathtub floor I got back up .

I reminded myself of God promises. God knows what my heart desires . I am going to keep my faith that I will be a mother one day . No matter how hard this get I will try my best to hold on and prepare myself for my future when my baby gets here !

Ladies after you cry , scream or do whatever always remember to never give up !

Please be strong !

I am trying my best ❤️