Excited but utterly terrified

Alex

I know I post a lot about my miscarriages, but with all three of them I felt like I got super excited. This time around, I am excited but I don't want to get attached yet. Like I know I am pregnant, but it is almost on the back of my mind. I am so afraid that I am going to go to my ultrasound and find out that this baby doesn't have a heartbeat. I will never be able to enjoy my pregnancies ever again, and I HATE that I have to feel that way. 😭😭😭