My first experience with my first fuck buddy

⚠️THIS IS A LONG POST SO WARNING⚠️ Ok so I’m so confused. I worked as a customer service rep about four years ago. That’s when I met him. He was my boss, & I instantly had a crush on him. Nothing ever happened though. I quit after a year and months later he added me on Facebook. We were friends and things escalated into something else. I invited him over to my house to actually watch a movie although fucking around with him was in the back of my mind. We were watching The Avengers and he suddenly looks at me and starts kissing me. I pushed back and looked at him confused and he grabbed my face and kissed me again. I’m kissing him back and he’s touching my body all over and I’m so turned the fuck on and he asks “do you want this?” I moaned “I want you” he’s kissing my neck, starts sucking on my breast and I’m moaning and groaning he puts his hand inside my pants and is playing with my clit from outside of my panties and whispers “this is what I want baby” and not a word comes out but all of my moaning and he’s still playing with my clit and says “baby you’re so fucking wet” and I reply “yes baby” and he says with desperation “baby I want this” and I answer “you have me” and he says while still playing with pussy “I want this too” and I reached to undo the button of my pants grabbed his hand and guide it inside of my pussy and I tell him “it’s all yours” and he replies “it’s so warm & wet” and starts to remove my pants and panties as he’s going down to eat me he looks at me again and kisses me and starts making his tongue way toward my pussy and I’m moaning and squirming around and when he finally reaches my pussy he says “fuck mmmm” he starts going at it, his tongue on my clit I’m gasping for air he says “baby do you like this” and I reply “yes baby that’s the spot I’m gonna cum” he starts slowly down and I’m begging him “baby pls don’t stop” he reply’s “you want this, you want me to keep going?” I’m moaning “yes baby kiss my pussy” tears coming out my eyes at how good this feels. He slides a finger in and is still eating me and he’s slurping my juices. He slides a second finger in “fuck baby yes I’m gonna cum” I moaned and he replies “fuck chiquita quiero que te vengas en mi” I fucking came “oh my fucking god” I fell in love x 100 my soul left my body and he’s still eating me and my legs are shaking and his pinning me down and he turns me around and he’s fucking me slowly from behind and still playing with my clit I’m screaming “daddy go harder, go deeper” and he pulls my hair and puts his arm around my neck and he’s chocking me and I’m cuming again “fuck me daddy” and he cums with me as he moans “uh fuck baby” and I lay down thinking he’s done, we’re down. He pick me up from behind again and he starts eat me from the back, my pussy is so numb from all of this but it still feels so good, and he tongue makes his way to my butt (first time experience) and I’m like whoaaaaa and sort of jerk away and he grabs my booty and says “nah get your ass over here chiquita” and he sticks his tongue in there again, I felt so exposed and wierd but it felt soooooo fucking goooood 🤤 and he’s behind there eating my ass and playing with my clit and I’m moaning and he says “you like that baby, you taste so fucking good” and I reply “fuck yes baby don’t stop” and he says “oh fuck” and I say “yes baby” he says “I’m gonna fucking cum with all your moaning and I turn around to face his dick and tell him “cum in my mouth daddy” and his desperately shoved his dick in my mouth and said “suck this dick mami” and he instantly cum and I hear his moan “ohh fuck” he then lays down and so do I, & he asks “what are you doing” I reply “resting” and he picks me and says “no time to rest for you” and places my pussy over his head and says “ride me baby” and I’m riding his face while he’s devouring my pussy and his hand reach out to my breast and his playing with them and he moaning from under me “mmmm baby don’t even think you’re resting after you cum from this, you’re riding my dick next” and he reaches for my neck and chokes me some more and moans “ride me faster chiquita” and I’m moving faster and his tongue feels so good on my pussy and his hands on my neck and I’m shaking and I tell him “oh baby I’m going to cum again and he grabs my waist and stops me from moving while he eats my sore and puffy pussy hardcore and he moans “yes baby come on me again squirt those juices on me again” I moan and cum again “fuck yes baby stooooop” he’s still grabbing my waist hard as fuck I’m so weak to fight him and my soul is removing itself from my body “baby stooooop” he’s still eating me at this point my whole body is shaking and he stops & my body just gives out and I black out. I don’t know how long I was out for but I woke up to him eating me out again and this continued for the three day weekend we didn’t even eat those three days I was MIA not answering my phone or texts. THIS IS THE BEST SEX I’VE EVER HAD. Fast forward a year later and we’re still doing the same thing. But I’m low key SO IN LOVE WITH HIM. Sometimes I think he is too but is afraid just like i am. Help meeee😩