Friday night

I was raped Friday night by someone I considered one of my best friends. Him and I briefly had a thing going on before he moved States. He was in town for his birthday and we went to the bar with his friends to celebrate. I told him that I had moved on and nothing could happen between him and I any more a few days this occurred. I blacked out from midnight until 5 am. I think he drugged me and took advantage of me. Idk how to pretend like I don’t want to die. I’m going to the women’s shelter today because it still hurts to sit down and I was bleeding last night when I tried to go bathroom. 😢 I’m so nervous.