D&E soooo terrified


We found out at our 20 week ultrasound that our baby did not have any kidneys or a bladder and would not survive. I have opted to have a D&E; at the end of the week over labour and delivery but I have SO much anxiety when I think about the procedure. I can’t believe they’re going to put a needle in my belly while I’m awake to stop the baby’s heartbeat. I am also terrified of going to sleep and waking up without my baby 😫