Should I even try?

So me and my boyfriend got into an argument because I dont trust him and apparently to him im too controlling, I expect too much and I made him cut off his friends. First of all, he ruined my trust by lying about little shit. Hes still mad that i hold grudges but its so hard for my trust to just be 100% like that so obviously its going to take a while. Also i made him cut off 2 girl friends that i thought were sneaky. Apparently i ruin his planned to go down the shore and party bur he never even mentioned it to me? Anyway so yeah we had this big argument and now we’re over it but is it normal to feel like he lost a bit of love for me? i feel like i pissed him off so much but he says that he still loves me. I honestly don’t know what to do and we were on the verge of breaking up. He told me he said all those things because he was in the moment. (I said some things as well). This relationship isnt “toxic”, we actually both love eachother alot. My question is though, how can i stop being insecure be able to see him go out and not get paranoid that he’ll do something and hurt me . Btw this is my first ever serious relationship and we are both 17