Idk what I’m feeling. Love or not...

So my relationship w my boyfriend is pretty complicated in the sense of y we can’t hang out. And he doesn’t have the best home life, and it’s just kinda complicated. And for the past like 2 months we have been SUPER like, bipolar, not meaning to be offensive but idk how else to describe it. We fight one day, we make up, things r fine for awhile, then we fight again. It’s a cycle. And Everything for me has been different. I haven’t felt as happy or as in love. And I do love him, I know that for a 100% fact. I just, sometimes I don’t want to be w him and sometimes idk if I’m in love w him? Idk how to explain. But then I don’t want him being w anybody else, or talking w anybody. Idk what I’m feeling. Has anybody else been through this?