I have always had low self esteem, but this really destroyed what little I had left. My husband cheated on me and told her he thought I was ugly and he was unattracted to me. That she was better than me in every way and he thought my body was gross, even though I lost 110 lbs. She was cold enough to send me the screen shots when SHE told me about the affair. (She was a friend and had my number) But he told me he lied to her because he wanted to insure the chance of sleeping with her again....at least he was honest about that. But now i know any time he complemented me it was just a lie to keep me around. And she really is a homily woman....so what does that say about me? And the things he said about me....i mean, i get that I'm not the prettiest girl on earth and I'm not where i want to be with my weight yet, but i mean...come on, I'm not that bad. Am i?

Sorry to be so pitiful and needy. But like...really? Am i that bad?