why don't I have the motivation

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I gained so much weight after having my daughter not like I was small before her but I weigh the same idea when I was pregnant and it's making me depressed but I can't find the strength or The Willpower to want to lose weight but I want to lose it still bad I weigh over 230 something pounds I want to get back down to 170 it's hard to eat healthy when her father does not like vegetables of any kind and I won't go out of the way to cook healthy for myself if I'm just going to have to make meals for him to how does anybody find strength and The Willpower to do this why can't I find it