Depression

I tend to fall into depression every so often for different reasons. For the last month I’ve become more depressed than usual. I feel like I’m in a dark place, which I know can be hard for people to understand because I’m super happy with my fiancé and our wedding that’s a few months away. I can’t put my finger around the exact cause, which I’m sure stress has a huge influence. I feel very down. I’m not happy with myself. I look at myself in disgust and disappointment. I’m so emotional. My mood has been all over the place. My fiancé is trying his best to make me feel better, which I completely appreciate and love him for. I distanced myself from everyone. I pushed myself away from my best friend, who knows me very well. They both know I’ve struggled with depressive episodes, but i haven’t shared how bad I’ve been feeling. I know things will get better, but I’m just not in a good place and it makes me feel really bad.