Rant...

Gotta let loose here.

So in July I’ll be turning nineteen and six days later is my 2 years of dating this one dude. Now. He has an amazing job as basically a software developer but his hours are crazy. Obviously he can’t take any days off but it literally means he will be gone from 6 am to 7 or 8 pm, so nothing will be able to be celebrated. I love that he’s working so hard but is it right to be disappointed that we can’t do anything? I mean it’s been two years. I kinda had gotten my hopes up for at least a dinner or something.

I just feel stupid feeling like we are closer to getting engaged or something and I bring it up too much as it is.

I just don’t know if what I’m feeling is normal or not. We’ve established we want to get married and have children. We’ve known that since literally day one.

But so much has gotten in the way, for cars to psychotic roommates and I’m out of energy. Sorry for the rant. Again, this is not me tearing him down. I gave up everything so he could have this job: my job, car, and I’d do it all again for him. I just hate that it’s so difficult and stressful on him and I hate that we can’t ever do anything for anniversaries or birthdays.