Help- advice💧Dating after death of a love

Hi everyone

Here’s my struggle, I’m dating a policeman... he’s a great man and I love him. My last relationship was with another officer that was killed in the line of duty. This man that was killed was my absolute everything and the love I felt with him was unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. It’s been a couple years since we lost him and I’ve been dating the man I’m with for over 6 months.

I feel guilty because I still miss my ex that was killed... and I don’t want to talk to my current about it. I still have thoughts about calling him or have dreams about him... but I feel like I shouldn’t bring it up to my current..

I worry that I can’t love my current with everything because I’m held back by my ex

It’s difficult...

I’m not even sure what I’m looking for in the post... just gathering others thoughts on my situation..