I want a family.. but not with my husband

I feel so ashamed to think this way but I can’t help but wonder if other women think about this as well.

I love my husband majority of the time😝 (lol). He has baby fever right now and has an 11year old with his ex wife. After telling me for years how much he doesn’t want to have another child he now wants one with me.. I want to have kids one day eventually but.... not with my husband. I don’t agree with a lot of his parenting styles and sometimes he has an ugly personality. When I disagree on something he isn’t the easiest person to communicate with and I’m afraid that if we have children together we will constantly be at each other’s throats due to our different views of parenting.

Am I the only one that doesn’t want to grow a family with my husband? I can’t dare to tell him how I feel about the subject but my feelings and thoughts on this matter scare me to think...maybe we shouldn’t be together... Is this grounds for a divorce? 😥

I should also add in that I did want to have children with him when we married, I was the only one wanting children and was determined to change his mind.. now that he has changed his mind and brain washed me into thinking that children are not for us he wants me to get pregnant now.. it’s mind f-ing me.