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Hi girls!! I’m 19 I’m a virgin, and I have a relationship with my bf for 2 years and 3 months we have never had sex. I really want to do it. When I started my relationship my mom used to treat me kind of bad (she is very “conservative”) because I always was with my bf holding hands and kissing (my family and bf used to go out) so, I realized that when I did those things she got upset, so when we got to our house I asked her what was wrong with her because she was upset. I she used to tell me that those stuff are wrong and everything and when I was like 14 or 15 she and my that used to tell me that if some day I do something that I’m not supposed to and got pregnant they where going to kick me out of the house, I don’t know they used to tell me that. And because all of that stuff we don’t go out anymore with my family, recently my bf stayed in my house in a matress on the floor and unintentionally I fall asleep in the matress with him and my parents started saying bad stuff to me. But the point is that I want to have sex with my bf but because of my parents I haven’t done it. It’s been to years with him and I feel ready and everything but something in me is telling me not to do it because maybe my parents are going to know or something I don’t know.

I really need and advice or something!

Sorry for my spelling and my English, my first language is Spanish.