I just had a powerful dream

I just want to share it before it leaves me

I don’t know why, but I had a dream I was on some kind of camping trip and when we left the bus we were on went into a lake. Almost everyone had escaped put I was left because I had passed out.

I woke up still on the bus, as it was submerged in water. Idk if anyone knows this but if your vehicle goes into water, you should let it fill up.. all the way. Just sit and wait for the cab to fill entirely because it’s impossible to open the door in the water pressure. If you break a window that water is gonna be sucked in fast and you’re gonna drown in a panic and it’s gonna make it impossible to open the door. Also there will be glass and water coming at you so that’s really a bad idea.

I waited until the bus was filled and I held my breath and opened the bus window and went out. I didn’t think about the fact that it was a huge fucking bus and the force of it sinking dragged my ass down with it. I grabbed onto the bus and held as long as I could waiting for it to stop sinking. I could see the surface getting further and further away. But I had no choice, these were my best options of survival. There was no way for me to fight the drag, I would have exhausted myself. My need to take a breath was overwhelming and as soon as the bus hit the bottom I kicked my feet and swam as hard as I could. I didn’t make it to the surface before passing out and someone pulled me up.

At some point later someone was mocking me? Telling me that my strength to make it out of the situation was a lie. I wouldn’t have made it without help. It was like an inner struggle like it gave me no way to congratulate myself on not dying.

So I had to do it again, over and over until I made it to the surface by myself. And then I woke up.

I could just see this as a dumb dream but it put things in my head for me to think about. What have I overcome that I don’t give myself enough credit for? A lot. And if I had to go through it again I know I’d survive.